Last night I watched MTV's true life, and I guess you could say it was about eating disorders. This guy lost 100 pounds in 6 months by starving himself, but then he would binge uncontrollably. It was honestly like I was looking into my own life. It made me really sad.

Intake so far:

1/2 a banana: 55 cals

1 cup of blueberry green tea: 0 cals

OK.

I have 55 days to lose 15 pounds.

Thoughts?

Huge binge and purge last night.

I hate myself... I hate it when I lose my self control. Urrrgh.

Today is going to be a huge restriction day. I did pilates twice, and I'm going to play tennis and maybe I'll go for a jog, too. Maybe I will work off some of the calories I didn't get out last night. Blah.

I am soooo sleepy... I have a job interview today and I'm nervous... I havn't had a job interview in three years.

Breakfast: 1 small yogurt (40 cals); 1 package of cinnamon streusel crispy delights (90 cals)

Lunch: 1 veggie burger (90 cals) on a whole wheat pita (64 cals)